well, i think this will be my last deviation... I have nothing to say anymore, i have nothing to write about... Everything stays the same.. No luck, no money, no life... What a looser....
I have so many feelings going throught me right now, and all at once... they really make no sence... I feel saddnes, hopelessness, bitter, pissed off god only knows at who and for what.. I feel happy to have what i do right now, yet i feel sad, because it's not even half of what i wanted... I feel betrayed, but i don't know why?! Nobody did me any bad... I feel a lone around all those people... I feel a lot of pain, and i start crying because it hurts, but i can't explain to anyone why i cry, why i feel the pain, why i'm so unhappy... I guess i'm tired of watching other people get what they want, while i'm stuck.... i'm trying to get out, but i can't... no matter how fast i seem to run towards the light, i stay in the dark... i see the light, but it seems impossible to reach... And there is no one to guide me through, because it's no one's problem but mine.. everyone else has their own problems to deal with... even though i have so much shit on my plate, i still manage to help other people, in return for nothing.... IT JUST HURTS...
I really wish everyone the best, because everyone deserves it...
Bye everyone
Thank you for all your comments and support

Always your

Victoria

AKA: Vicka